Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.

Hungry not only for bread - but hungry for love.
Naked not only for clothing - but naked for human dignity and respect.
Homeless not only for want of a room of bricks - but homeless because of rejection.
- Mother Teresa

There is something to be said about those people in your life who love you no matter what. No matter what you say, no matter what you do, no matter who you are they just love you and accept you. Sometimes I feel I "force" a relationship (friendship etc.) with someone and not because I feel a strong connection to them but sometimes just because there is a past, a history that connects us. However now, in the present I feel as if I'm being judged and have not risen to the impossible standards they have placed upon me. I try my best in my daily life to live a good life, to be a good friend, sister, daughter and I feel that at most times I succeed in doing so. Sometimes I fall short, but I think we all do and I try not to dwell on the instances where I have done so. Sometimes though I feel that I am a pawn in someones game and they constantly knock me down to make themselves feel better.

Then....

Then there are certain people I hold in my heart, some are thousands of miles away, some are a few houses away and some even have four legs ( :) ). These people build me up to make me the best possible person I can be. They strive along with me to help me succeed my life goals. They offer words of wisdom, praise, criticism and they celebrate along side me. They are the people I run to when my heart has shattered, tears streaming down my face for there comfort and support. These are the people that make me who I am today, these are the people that hold me together, keep me going but most of all these are the people that love and support me no matter what. Without these people I would be truly lost.

A few things people have either made me feel or said to me recently that I want to clear up:
- I am not stupid.
- My heart does sometimes break as a euthanasia tech, but I see this as a strength NOT a weakness
- My job is not always the kind of job that you leave behind at the end of the day, some days it's hard and some days it wears me down to the point where I have nothing left to give to anyone
- Sometimes I just need to talk about things going on in my life, please listen. I try to listen when you talk to me about whats going on in your life. Please don't turn it around to be about you, again.

Thanks for reading, this post has made it so that I can go to bed without a heavy heart weighing me down. One final quote from Mother Teresa before I crawl into bed:

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.